March 28, 2012


i'm neither the best nor the strongest but i'm sure i've embarked on my journey there: to know the real love.

true love means helping each other to attain Jannah. 

yess, I love you. 
i wanna be with you there. 
for the same reason, i pray that you & i will be there, together my friend. 

come, let's head towards the light. 
held your head up.
raise our hands & pray. 

for a bleeding heart is soooo much better than a dead one. 

Allah is the best listener, indeed. ^^
need SOS? call 24434!! 

Sesungguhnya aku sedang menasihati kamu, bukanlah bererti akulah yg terbaik dlm kalangan kamu. Bukan juga yg paling soleh dlm kalangan kamu, kerana aku juga pernah melampaui batas utk diri sendiri. Seandainya seseorang itu hanya dapat menyampaikan dakwah apabila dia sempurna, nescaya tidak akan ada pendakwah. Maka akan jadi sikitlah org yg memberi peringatan..

-Imam Hasan Al-Basri-

“the ones that love us, never really leave us ”

March 26, 2012

deja vu_

“Allah akan hancurkan hati org yang Dia sayang berkali-kali sehingga tiada harapan untuk dunia ini. Yang ada hanya harapan untuk Dia sahaja..bagi yang mencari cinta Allah bersedialah menerima hakikat ini..” 
- Syeikh Abdul Qadir al-Jilani 

suddenly it feels like kindergarten all over again.
that feel.
that big bang.
that innocence.
that view.

that feeling of broken inside. 
that feeling of being left behind.
that feeling of unworthy of any explanations.
that feeling of smiling when I'm on the verge of tearing up.

though it's heartbreaking when your own don't wanna fight for you,
when you have to fight for your own, on your own.
though it's been 17years since.
it feels like just like that.
just when i was in the kindergarten. 

may Allah forgive me for all the sins that i've committed. 
for all the times i've been forgetting the very reason of my existence. 

people change, memories don't.  

though i may be a new person, 
though you might me a changed man, 
remember this. 

we're gonna be questioned,
for every promise that we broke,
for every word that we've said,  
for every thing that we've done,
either in the open or the concealed ones.

every single one.

"Those that fail to learn from history, are destined to repeat it". 

March 24, 2012


When someone has hurt you—deeply to your soul—it’s tempting to want to shut down and shut off; to give in and give up; to get bitter, resentful, depressed—and all before breakfast!

This soul-shutting-down tendency reminds me of those classic zombie horror movies. You know, those unconscious, soulless zombies walking around in darkness, taking bites out of innocent, happy, soulful people? One chomp, then, suddenly, these newly bitten folks find themselves becoming zombie-like themselves—they feel their souls shut down; they crave spending time in darkness; they want to bite others.

Likewise, if you’ve suffered from an emotional zombie bite, it’s temping to want to join the zombie crowd and shut off your soul, seek dark thoughts, and chomp upon another. It’sespecially tempting to chomp upon the zombie chump who chomped upon you!

Basically, when you’ve been bitten by a zombie, you can find yourself feeling the urge to become zombie-like yourself. But you must resist. You must stay strong. You must keep your soul alive!

 First, you must face toward the light—where love, forgiveness, peace, faith, joy, and growth can all be found. All of this light is what keeps your soul alive—and keeps you from becoming an unconscious, soul-dead zombie.
Zombie-like behavior cannot survive in the light. Zombie-like behavior thrives in darkness, with a shut-down soul—and well-fed ego—an ego which survives on being right about having the right to be bitter, resentful, and depressed—all before breakfast.

One the biggest sources of light to keep your soul alive is Self-love. And one of the biggest sources of self-love?

 Forgiveness can start with forgiving yourself for being bitten by a soulless zombie. After all, chances are, the zombie who chomped upon you didn’t look like a zombie. Just like in the movies, these soullesszombies often pass themselves off as normal soulful people.

Next, you have to forgive the zombie who bit you.  Remember, forgiving your zombie will release their poison from your system. Forgiving your zombie will help to make sure you save your soul from shutting down. Forgiving your zombie will make sure you don’t start craving constant dark thoughts. Forgiveness releases the zombie-bite poison from your system.

Remind yourself that your zombie probably became a zombie because a zombie bit them. And the zombie who bit them, was bitten by a zombie. And the zombie who bit them, was bitten by a zombie.

Feel compassion for these zombies—knowing that they, sadly, must walk the earth living with a shut-down soul—never experiencing  their own soul, dancing and shining with the light of love, forgiveness, peace, faith, joy, and growth.

If you’ve recently been bitten by a zombie, take a moment to vow to yourself that you will do what you can to save this planet from being overtaken by zombies, by making sure you, at least, won’t become a zombie yourself.

The first to apologize is the bravest. The first to forgive is the strongest. The first to forget is the happiest. 

guest house_


This being human is a guest house
Every morning a new arrival.
A joy, a depression, a meanness,
some momentary awareness comes
as an unexpected visitor.
Welcome and entertain them all!
Even if they are a crowd of sorrows,
who violently sweep your house
empty of its furniture,
still treat each guest honorably.
He may be clearing you out for some new delight.
The dark thought, the shame, the malice,
meet them at the door laughing,
and invite them in.
Be grateful for whoever comes,
because each has been sent
as a guide from beyond.

March 23, 2012

what do I do?

   بِسْــــــــــــــــــمِ ﷲِالرَّحْمَنِ اارَّحِيم

STOP, if you know it's wrong. 
THINK, when you don't know it's wrong. 
APOLOGIZE, when you did something wrong. 
FORGIVE, if they've done something wrong to you. 
And PRAY, when everything or when even nothing goes wrong. 

HE has the time to listen to us whine,
about nothing & everything all at once.

why worry when we can pray? 
why despair when He's always there?
He promised. He did, did He not. 

we might forget this every little now and then.
wohohoho. well, what friends are for?

dear friends,
whenever you are in this particular circumstance,
give that friend of yours a good FACEPALM.
yep, YOUR palm on his/her face.
just kidding! 
well, not that I'd tell you not to. if it's for the best, then why not do it sooner??
bad bad girl.

dear the ones who're having a rough time at the moment,
you, yes you're the one.
this too shall pass.
We’re always looking for ways to ease the pain. 
Sometimes we ease the pain by making the best of what we have. 
Sometimes it’s by losing ourselves in the moment. 
And sometimes all we need to do to ease the pain, is call a simple truce. 

no matter how much craps you get knocked down with, 
stand back up.
brush yourself off & smile. 

so i left_

       بِسْــــــــــــــــــمِ ﷲِالرَّحْمَنِ اارَّحِيم 

telling the world may not do me anything.

they just chose what they wanna believe.
then again, I was the one who didn't tell. 
so here I am. 

well, instead of bashing what I hate, it'd be better if I promote what I love. 
that's all I have to take my own breath away. (err..)

treat me like a joke and I'll leave you like it's funny. 

today I had just been reminded of why I was tend to be left behind.
o yeah. oh, world. thank you for everything.
grateful. yessss, I am. 

another man's trash is another man's treasure. 

this one's given me the idea.
a wonderful one, I must say. 
what you're seeing as a treasure chest might be just another trunk of junk for others. 

you see, it's a matter of the point of view. 

and so the world THINK they know_

I really don't think I need to attend every argument I was invited to. 
NO, I do not. 

March 21, 2012

bitter me?

You tucked me in, turned out the light
Kept me safe and sound at night
Little girls depend on things like that

Brushed my teeth and combed my hair
Had to drive me everywhere
You were always there when I looked back

You had to do it all alone
Make a living, make a home
Must have been as hard as it could be

And when I couldn't sleep at night
Scared things wouldn't turn out right
You would hold my hand and sing to me

Caterpillar in the tree
How you wonder who you'll be
Can't go far but you can always dream

Wish you may and wish you might
Don't you worry, hold on tight
I promise you there will come a day
Butterfly fly away

Butterfly fly away, butterfly fly away
Flap your wings now you can't stay
Take those dreams and make them all come true

Butterfly fly away, butterfly fly away
We've been waiting for this day
All along and knowing just what to do
Butterfly, butterfly, butterfly, butterfly fly away

how are you?

    بِسْــــــــــــــــــمِ ﷲِالرَّحْمَنِ اارَّحِيم  

how are you? 
what's up?
howdy, how do you do?
kaifa haluki?
ap kaise hain?
ni hau ma?

no matter how did you say it, 
no matter what language were you using,
no matter when did you ask.

i kept on saying say this.

or may be..

or may be this.

you see, this single word says so much.
if we really listen. 

oh. now this startled me.

say whutttt??

well, i do realized we do have our own moments, do we not.

just smile and wave. 
after all, this is just our temporary home.

March 15, 2012


this is not the right way. This is not the way that Allah bless. I let you go, and please let me go. I don't want to bring you to Jahannam, instead I'll pray for you to get the light from Allah.
May Allah bless you and me.. "

then I was gone. 

I realized, it was hard.
but I put my faith in Allah.
He's The One who holds my heart & his heart as well.

I'm not turning my back ever again.

-True love means helping each other to attain Jannah.-

March 13, 2012


Kenangan itu masih mengimbau kotak mindanya. Masih menjadi teman setia kepada mimpinya yang enggan pergi pada dinihari yang kedinginan itu.
“Adakah engkau melihat orang yang mengambil nafsunya menjadi Tuhannya dan Allah menyesatkannya kerana mengetahui (kejahatan hatinya) selepas didatangi ilmu kepadanya.” (Jatsiyah:23)
Mengapa dia masih berperasaan sedemikian sedangkan telah diusir perasaan itu dari dalam dirinya sejak lama dahulu? Hidupnya kini telah dibebaskan dari perasaan yang membelenggu jiwanya itu. Perasaan serba salah dan dosa yang amat. Kenapa kenangan itu harus kembali semula?
Dan dia cuba untuk memadam memori silam namun kisah itu bagaikan berterbangan di kotak matanya yang hampir berair.

March 12, 2012

nobody said it was easy_

Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are
I had to find you, tell you I need you
Tell you I set you apart

Tell me your secrets and ask me your questions
Oh, let's go back to the start
Running in circles, coming up tails
Heads on a science apart

Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard
Oh, take me back to the start

I was just guessing at numbers and figures
Pulling the puzzles apart
Questions of science, science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart

But tell me you love me, come back and haunt me
Oh and I rush to the start
Running in circles, chasing our tails
Coming back as we are

Nobody said it was easy
Oh, it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard
I'm going back to the start

-nobody said it was easy.-

March 4, 2012

temporary home_

Little boy, 6 years old 
A little too used to bein' alone. 
Another new mom and dad,another school, 
Another house that'll never be home.
When people ask him how he likes this place... 
He looks up and says, with a smile upon his face, 

"This is my temporary home 
It's not where I belong. 
Windows and rooms that I'm passin' through. 
This is just a stop, on the way to where I'm going. 
I'm not afraid because I know this is my 
Temporary Home." 

Young mom on her own.
She needs a little help, got nowhere to go. 
She's lookin' for a job, lookin' for a way out, 
Because a half-way house will never be a home. 
At night she whispers to her baby girl, 
"Someday we'll find our place here in this world." 

"This is our temporary home. 
It's not where we belong. 
Windows and rooms that we're passin' through. 
This is just a stop, on the way to where we're going.
I'm not afraid because I know this is our 
Temporary Home."

Old man, hospital bed, 
The room is filled with people he loves. 
And he whispers don't cry for me, 
I'll see you all someday. 
He looks up and says,"I can see God's face." 

"This is my temporary Home 
It's not where I belong. 
Windows and rooms that I'm passin' through.
This was just a stop,on the way to where I'm going. 
I'm not afraid because I know... this was 
My temporary home." 

This is our temporary home.

well, this does say something, right?

echo's fading_

بِسْــــــــــــــــــمِ ﷲِالرَّحْمَنِ اارَّحِيم

It is the love of Allah in your heart which is the true love. Don't exchange it for any other love or whim.

It is the love of Allah that matters. All other loves are OK so long as they don't lead you to ignore Allah's love.

It is the love of Allah that is love, all rest are mere echoes. And it is the love that was before and will remain after all echoes have passed away.

there is no easy way to heal emotional scars. 

wounds of the heart are undoubtedly necessary. 
that's because bearing wounds in our hearts, we can become aware of other people's pain.

you have only really lost something when you've lost your relationship with Allah.