so close yet so far apart

بِسْــــــــــــــــــمِ ﷲِالرَّحْمَنِ اارَّحِيم

Face to face and heart to heart
We're so close yet so far apart
I close my eyes I look away
That's just because I'm not okay
But I hold on, I stay strong
Wondering if we still belong

Will we ever say the words we're feeling
Reach down underneath and tear down all the walls
Will we ever have our happy ending?
Or will we forever only be pretending?
Will we always, always, always be pretending

Keeping secrets safe
Every move we make
Seems like no ones letting go
And it's such a shame
Cause if you feel the same
How am I supposed to know?



one step closer?

-بِسْــــــــــــــــــمِ ﷲِالرَّحْمَنِ اارَّحِيم

when the wound heals, the mind ripens. 

the quest offshore!

-بِسْــــــــــــــــــمِ ﷲِالرَّحْمَنِ اارَّحِيم

a couple weeks back. 
3 months as it was.

45 minutes from the clinic.

30 minutes from this bridge.

this 750 meters bridge. 

Behold, Pamaguan!

this is where it all begins.

there, they're waiting.

the journey begun there and then.

the sun shines brightly, the wind blew softly drifting the memories way away.

let the love flows baby~

3 hours on the road ( err.. road?) then off somewhere again.

visiting from house to house, greeting and meeting the villagers.

frankly, it was exhilarating being with them.

still is.

the excited looks of the children here waiting to be sent home after-school. 

all ready to go. home, of course!

now isn't this the sweetest goodbye?

indeed, absence do makes the heart grow fonder. 

no, nah nah!

-بِسْــــــــــــــــــمِ ﷲِالرَّحْمَنِ اارَّحِيم

truth is, 

everybody is going to hurt you. 

you just have to find someone worth suffering for. 

the only time you are running out of chances is when you stop taking them. 

they don't know!

-بِسْــــــــــــــــــمِ ﷲِالرَّحْمَنِ اارَّحِيم

let the world speak. 

they don't know much.

He knows better, you know that right?

That moment when the emotion is too intense that no words could express it, and all you could say is, "Allah."

Because only He knows.

"But perhaps you hate a thing and it is good for you; and perhaps you love a thing and it is bad for you. And Allah Knows, while you know not."

[Al Baqarah: 216]

It is not the load that is bothering you, it's the way you are carrying it.

won't be easy!

-بِسْــــــــــــــــــمِ ﷲِالرَّحْمَنِ اارَّحِيم

If it's amazing, it won't be easy.

If it's easy, it won't be amazing.

If it's worth it, you won't give up.

If you give up, you're not worthy. 

Treat women the way you want your sister, mother, wife, and daughter to be treated. 

It's that simple.

busyet!

-بِسْــــــــــــــــــمِ ﷲِالرَّحْمَنِ اارَّحِيم

Be careful how you love. Imbalanced love turns to hate. Quick.

I can't promise you a perfect relationship, but I promise you that as long as we're trying,

I'm staying. 

it's not goodbye_

-بِسْــــــــــــــــــمِ ﷲِالرَّحْمَنِ اارَّحِيم

dear the ones who are reading this, 

take care. 

please do. 

till we meet again. 

sleeping with a broken heart?

-بِسْــــــــــــــــــمِ ﷲِالرَّحْمَنِ اارَّحِيم

whenever you feel wronged, take a step back. 

ask yourself why would you feel that way.

dear, that's our ego answering. 

you see, a bad day for ego is a great day for the soul. 

Sleeping is nice.
You forget about everything even just for a little while.

give your heart a break. 

don't you go sleeping with a broken heart. 

necessary is it not?

-بِسْــــــــــــــــــمِ ﷲِالرَّحْمَنِ اارَّحِيم

You will find that it is necessary to let things go; simply for the reason that they are heavy. So let them go, let go of them.

-Man cannot discover new oceans, unless he has the courage to lose sight of the shore.-

always a constant one_

-بِسْــــــــــــــــــمِ ﷲِالرَّحْمَنِ اارَّحِيم

it's a constant battle
between holding on and letting go. 
a constant fight
between remembering as well as forgetting.
a constant hurdle
of the effort of moving on and reaching the line.


always a constant one.

-The harder things get, the closer the help of Allah is.-

stand for something!

-بِسْــــــــــــــــــمِ ﷲِالرَّحْمَنِ اارَّحِيم

the more you know who you are and what you are looking for, the less you let things upset you.

-if you want to be trusted, be honest.-

never a wrong time_

-بِسْــــــــــــــــــمِ ﷲِالرَّحْمَنِ اارَّحِيم

A: I want to be a doctor, but people said that studying medicine is very tough. Should I go for it?

B: They're right. Studying medicine is very tough. But it's all about whether you want to choose a path you love or a path you think is easy. The path you love isn't always easy. If you love it, you'll pursue it.

there is never a wrong time to do the right thing. 

-wrong is wrong even if everyone is doing it. right is right even if no one is doing it.-

surely do!

-بِسْــــــــــــــــــمِ ﷲِالرَّحْمَنِ اارَّحِيم

If something is meant to go elsewhere, it will never come your way, but if it is yours by destiny, from you it cannot flee.” 

-Umar Ibn al-Khattab

a big thing or a small, 

the winner takes it all.

this too shall pass.. 

-if I am not protecting my partner's soul, then I am not his soulmate.-

neither nor_

-بِسْــــــــــــــــــمِ ﷲِالرَّحْمَنِ اارَّحِيم

it is neither mine to hold nor mine to keep.

show me how to carry on when its wound is indeed very deep.

in the heart,

there is hardness which can only be softened by remembrance of Allah.

-crying shows that your heart is not cold. if you can not cry, then cry because you can not.-

till then_

-بِسْــــــــــــــــــمِ ﷲِالرَّحْمَنِ اارَّحِيم

hopefully the hate subsides and the love can begin

It might start now,

Well maybe I’m just dreaming out loud

Until then.

Come home

Come home

Cause I’ve been waiting for you

For so long

For so long

Right now there's a war between the vanities

But all I see is you and me

The fight for you is all I’ve ever known

Ever known

So come home

-i hope you always find a reason to smile.-

nothing without?

-بِسْــــــــــــــــــمِ ﷲِالرَّحْمَنِ اارَّحِيم

love is nothing without action.

trust is nothing without proof.

regret is nothing without change. 

- if my life is for rent, I don't learn to buy.-

addicted!

-بِسْــــــــــــــــــمِ ﷲِالرَّحْمَنِ اارَّحِيم

i feel addicted to Your light.

burning through the darkest night.

When you're searching for the light

And you see no hope in sight

Be sure and have no doubt

He's always close to you

He's the one who knows you best

He knows what's in your heart

You'll find your peace at last

If you just have faith in Him

-if you put Allah first, you will never be the last.-

winner takes it all?

-بِسْــــــــــــــــــمِ ﷲِالرَّحْمَنِ اارَّحِيم

the winner takes it all
the loser's standing small
beside the victory, that's a destiny


Somewhere deep inside

You must know I miss you

But what can I say

Rules must be obeyed


i apologize
if it makes you feel bad
 seeing me so tense

No self-confidence

But you see

The winner takes it all

The winner takes it all

The loser has to fall

It's simple and it's plain

Why should I complain.

does it feel like winning when i'm losing it all?

-home is where your heart is.-

till Jannah, inshaAllah!

-بِسْــــــــــــــــــمِ ﷲِالرَّحْمَنِ اارَّحِيم

cheer up, buttercup. 

no matter how low you feel at this while, 

you're always someone's reason to smile.

 best friends till Jannah, inshaAllah!

they might not be there for you in time, but isn't Allah with you all the time?

ask Him, then. 

Allah takes the ones you love away from you so that you can be reminded that He's always there for you. 

-true love means helping each other to attain Jannah.-